Monday, December 29, 2008
Bleak year ahead
It's going to be a bleak and dark year ahead in 2009, with the effects of recession starting to be felt. I have to tighten my pockets, limit my spending. But that's not all, it will be gloomy and tough. 2009 will be one of the toughest years I'll be facing yet with so much at stake. I have to perform in TKD IVP and win to keep me staying in hall. And my studies will be the roughest ever yet as I struggle with first year subjects.
On the academic I've never done so badly in my life before.
Over the past few days, I've been rushing to separate events with the intention of giving my support to my guys for canvassing events. Since I only had so few members going, I thought I'd rush over to show my support as the ACGL and help them out. That was when I sensed something had changed. No wonder I felt recently that something was wrong. Now I realized why. And she didn't bother to tell me about it. I had to sense it myself.
I didn't think I would be affected. But now I realized that I am affected. But what she said is right. It all makes sense now. She had waited, and I couldn't be there. I am always preoccupied with my work. It's has always been true then. In history and now. I feel rather saddened slightly. Now I've lost the only close support that I have in that OG, is the 2009 really going to be that bleak for me? I feel so lonely. I seem to have totally lost Hushnom.
I have so many commitments, yet none of them yield any form of emotional gain or support. My strength and effort is being stretched too far and wide and my limits will be pushed beyond my boundaries in the coming year.
2009 will be my watershed year. The make or break period to prove my mettle and I will be tested on all fronts. Academics, TKD, SCBE, relationships, Spring and the Student Union.
It's really lonely at the top.
Posted by MK at 12:55 PM
