Saturday, July 19, 2008
The haunting past
It's been so many years, yet the stigma still remains.
There were two instances last night that made me wonder if I can ever leave my past behind me.
There was a gathering last night, and the last time I saw most of them was over 10 years ago! However, not everyone has changed, still I couldn't remember some of them. It was a small gathering, considering only 8 of us turned up out of a class of 41. Well the surprising thing is that, some of them couldn't recognize me at all.
Still it's nice to see them again, after all these years. And I'll be looking forward to more frequent future outings with them, hopefully more will turn up in the future.
That wasn't the only thing to return and haunt me.
When I got home, there was a small online chat and I found out that she still hates me? When I mentioned my school, the words the person used are unlike the person that I used to know. They were harsh; swearing and totally reminded me of the cold shoulder I received in a gathering over a year ago.
That wasn't actually surprising, though, I must say it's still somewhat hurting. I guess people change. Well, I have grown out of it, I don't want to be bothered about it anymore. After all, so many years have passed.
The remarks passed might seem superficial to others, but to me it was scathing... A person intimately aware of the entire scenario that happened so many years ago. I guess I've grown more mature than her during all these years that have passed.
Maybe what others say are right. I've changed. Though I am not sure what I've really changed into compared to all those years that have passed.
But the scars till remain.
Posted by MK at 1:42 PM
