Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Shitty performance

Today I went down to train, the class barely hit 20, which was understandable considering all those who fought for PA last Sat. There were many Silvers, which is good.

Today I had expected a light session of demo training and a little perspiration. But I never expected to get paired up with shifu! This is the first time I am really talking with him face-to-face without anyone else to back me. I am all alone. The class was very small today and we trained at the grandstand area instead.

"Class, black belts in front..."

Okay, so there were only 3 of us in front, the rest of the colour belts were paired behind. Since there were so little of us, when we did pairing, being the only odd one out, Shifu paired with me.

I was a total disgrace in front of Shifu! The first few sets of kicks was fine, but as we progressed further and more kicks were added, I couldn’t match up to his kicks! I just didn’t have the stamina to maintain the quality of my kicks compared with his. I felt like a total noob in front of shi fu, call myself a black belt? I am like total shit when paired with him.

He could maintain high-quality high-level kicks throughout the entire duration, but I was steaming out towards the end.

Don’t get me wrong, I have utmost respect for shifu, but I feel really disgraced I couldn’t produce the expected standard of a black belt in his eyes today, and today’s session wasn’t intensive at all. He was still very nice, saying in a non-condescending tone that even though I have been away from training for some time, I still haven’t really lost my basic skills, just the stamina. F***, I am like a total noob in front of shifu.

At least I didn’t disgrace myself in the circuit sparring session and managed to keep an easy pace for the final 2.4km run.

I was tired before I came, I still feel tired after I left. Post-NS, I have been attempting to regain some of my previous stamina and drive, hoping to slowly but surely build up my stamina again, I went to training today hoping that the exercise and the sweating it out will make me feel better but ended up feeling shittier.

F***... I am such a noob. stupid shit... Call yourself a bb.... How to face shifu?

Posted by MK at 10:59 PM