Thursday, July 17, 2008
Many objectives, many failures
Many objectives, many failuresThough I've been keeping myself busy, running about "getting objectives done", "doing work", but at the end of the day, what the hell have I achieved?
Throughout the week, I've tried to fulfill many objectives, complete tasks that I've set out to do, but they all seem to result in an unsatisfactory result or conclusion.
Nothing. Nothing at all, I've just wasted another day growing older, disillusioning myself that I know what I have to do and how I am going to get about doing it, to "get things done".
wtf... School is drawing nearer, yet I am in this state of blurred-grey limbo. I have many things on my "to-do" list, yet now matter how hard I keep trying, they just don't seem to get done. I seem to be busy running about in a merry-go-round, never ever reaching my intended destination. Just where the hell am I supposed to go to exactly?
For the past few days or so, I feel lost, lonely, clueless, devoid of a solid goal or destination. I am just... Passing time. Eventually reaching no conclusion nor achievement.
Another day roaming the school from destination to destination to "get things done".
I am very happy I managed to get this textbook before school starts. It will be a headstart. Or is it? Does having the book give a false assurance?
I really need to sit down and sort out my thoughts and get myself back together before i break down from imaginary stress.
I just feel... Down. I don't feel like myself. I always seem to know what to do don't I? Now why don't I know what to do next?
With every passing day this week I feel shittier and I don't know why.
