Friday, May 9, 2008
Frustrated
I guess I am quite irritated. It's been 3 days since I've become a civilian, and I am feeling so damn weak and unproductive.
Anyways, I've got this NS buddy who is damn unreliable. It’s been almost 2 weeks that he promised to return what he owes me, always promising to bring it to camp to give it to me, and up till now he hasn't and we've both ord-ed already! Maybe I shouldn’t lent it to him in the first place. F***. Always missing my calls and ignoring my messages. It's damn frustrating to keep demanding something from someone who owes you something. It's not like that item is a cheap trivial thing either.
That's the kind of attitude you get from rich obnoxious stuck-up brats with so much money they can afford to do anything and forget their basic responsibilities. He's those ultra-rich brats who's dad's don't ask whether they want a car, but ask "what kind of car they would like to have."
Here I am useless at his childish whim and fancy because he can afford to buy it ten times over and not bat an eyelid, but I can't. And it's MINE.
Okay, never mind about that my physical fitness is really shitty. I will be resuming my intensive training, just a few hours of training and I am feeling slightly drained. The training today wasn't even intensive and I didn't even spar at all, wth. I can't even hold up against another black-belt.
Maybe it's because I haven't really trained in 2 years, or maybe it's because of the antibiotics that's turning my stool to slush, or maybe it's because I did that 10km+ run around the estate yesterday and felt breathless after that.
I feel that my movements are so slow and useless. Shitty performance today!
Look like it's back to strapping on weights and doing vertical runs, obstacle runs and more intensive training.
Just gotta break that damn mental barrier.
Argh. Dear blog I am feeling frustrated.
Posted by MK at 10:13 PM
