Sunday, April 6, 2008

REJECTION

I guess this is more important than everything else so far. I lost all mood when I got those letters, already knowing the contents before even opening the damn letter.

Got rejected from every damn university in the states. Looks like I won't be going there after all. All the effort put into the applications all gone to waste, it's not about the cost. Hell, I spent over $600 in applications, air-mailing my transcripts and spent a lot of time studying for SATS, answering people's questions about my motives, "why this", "why that", "what now" and juggling my active NS commitments just to receive this. I ain't that rich to go and apply for some 10 or 20 universities as most other A-level students have done so. I estimate it costs about $100++ per university application, most likely more if you factor in intangible costs, not mentioning time involved.

I got rejected from all 4 that I applied to! Even CMU doesn't want me, coz I am damn useless.

Maybe it's because of my shitty SAT scores. Or maybe because I didn't get to do my SATIIs, or maybe because I am just damn well not good enough... I am definately in a disadvantaged position being a polytechnic graduate. The stigma is there for us that we're not as good academically as an A-level student, and HOW many poly students actually DO SATS?!

Age disadvantage, time-constraints, military responsibilies and commitments, field inexperience...

Damn it. I am griping. Next will be like "It's so unfair..."

....

A damn immature thing to say don't you agree...

Looks like I am staying on this island for my undergraduate studies.. I know people who are happy at this news, and I know people who are affected by my thoughts, objectives, goals and targets. But what the hell? It's the best damn-you-you-suck-go-to-hell rejection letters ever received, written in the most profound and exuberant manner that actually makes you feel good because the university is not good enough for you and your exemplary caliber.

The application process was a nightmare in itself. Running about getting transcripts, recommendation and testimonial letters, SATs, postage, payment and applications.

Now all amounted to nothing. Now the scholarships I've applied for don't mean anything anymore either.

CMU, Yale, Cornell, Duke : Rejected

I have no mood to say anything else.

It's now plan B now that plan A has gone poofff.

Posted by MK at 11:36 AM